I rewrote this speech / so many times. // And / I kept layering, / layer, / layer, / layer on top of it / simply because I was afraid / of my deepest passion and my deepest fear / would be that I have / nothing to say. // And so / I kept writing until someone, / a very beautiful / and / exquisite soul / said, just stop, stop. // What is the one gift / you want to give / your audience? // It is enough / and you are enough. // And so I took about 24 hours. // I stepped back. // I started sloughing off / all the layers, / all the layers until I got to that core message, which was there the whole time. // I was just afraid that it wasn't enough, / but it's enough. // It's way more than enough. // And that is that I'm going to teach you / how to turn your self-sabotage / into your superpower. // So what is self-sabotage? // Self-sabotage is when you take part in the behaviors / that undermine your process, / your progress, / and your success. // And it stems from / feeling / undervalued, / underwhelmed, / fears of inadequacy, / fears of / the future and the unknown. // And it shows up in so many different ways. // One, / it shows up in procrastination. // This is when you have things that you need to do, but you put off, you stress yourself out while you're not putting it off. // And then when you finally get to it, you still stress yourself out. // And either you / have an amazing / result or / a satisfactory result. // No matter what, / your confidence / goes down. // Another one is perfectionism. // This is where you set the bar so high. // You work towards it. // You get maybe right beneath it or maybe even hit it. // And boom, / instantly, / you raise that bar higher. // And all that does / is to / diminish / your self-belief, / and it reinforces your belief / that you're not enough. // And a third one that I want to share with you today / is self-medicating. // With drugs, / alcohol, / pulling out that credit card for that quick / little hit. // This stems from wanting to avoid, / to... to just really get away, / to numb out / feelings of not enoughness. // So here we do... here we are. // We stay in this little bubble of self-sabotage. // We're in pain. // We have both our foot on the accelerator / and the brake. // We stay in this pain place / because our soul is so... / is hurting so much because it knows it is not fulfilling its destiny. // So we stay in this pain / simply to avoid a potential pain over here / of really going for it. //