Because I was so for the day and we were going to do this and then go for dinner and sing songs and she was going to tell me I'm the best mother and go to bed. So I had the whole agenda like we parents do. We have the next 25 years and then when the child decided to b a child as mine did, she dared to have some feelings an shriek and scream like children do. I was just aghast as if you know she had uh offended me and insulted my very and I remember feeling a that I was failing,

I can't control this bloody little thing and everyone's watching me and I'm useless and this child is just not and look at her. How dare she? And so you feel judgement from others. You feel a great sense of inner criticism and shame and then you kind of try to label your child and you make her the bad one. So I did all of that in the short span of a 20 minutes walk of shame as I walked her back home an everyone was looking at me as if I was her um and then I couldn't even let it go you know children have a mood and they can move on but we parents keep so I was whipping myself into shame and that's when I had a to realize how much my ego was wrapped up in this destiny of a three-year old. That's a real dangerous thing, when you give your sense of worth to a three-year-old. Now you're in trouble. And that's when I woke up and I realized that I needed to do a lot of work on myself so that I could and not be affected by my child's mood, by her capricious thoughts, by her nature and therefore liberate her.